What do i say...?

Women have been fighting for their 'equal rights', but I am wondering what exactly are we looking for in that sector? Just political rights? Or can we say - equality in society? We always thought of the bigger picture, but not the small passport size image that we leave behind at a place called HOME.

Why is that we (women ourselves) think that we can ask for standing up right against any man in the outer world but we still end up being those who listen to them at home?

Looking at my grand-mother, mother, mother-in-law and many other women in my family, I just end up thinking - What the hell are we looking for when we say 'equal rights for women?'
Even as girls who are just 5 yrs old, we are told how to sit, talk, walk, eat, and behave with our own siblings (who are boys of course). At such an early age, when a girl can't think for herself, we have so many people directing the way we spend each and every day of our lives. Although it is funny to think of all the times I personally ended up screaming at my mom for giving me directions for doing things, today I realize she was right. I am expected to do certain things, exactly the way she used to direct me. I said, 'Grow up mom; you are still living in last century. Who's gonna worry if I follow those rules or not?' Oh! by god I was so wrong. Now, I can only smile when I find myself in such situations :)

I always envied my brother because, like with many other men in our country, no one bothered if he walked making noise with his shoe, shouted when angry, slammed the door, laughed-out-loud on a joke, spoke fast and loud due to excitement, sat along with the older men of the house, slept crossed legged, or ate directly from the tawa on the stove. (I do them to, but only when I don't have an audience)

Mostly, we girls are brought up in such an environment that we can't sit or sleep next to our brothers after a certain age and we just end up growing as strangers in the same household. We are always taught to say 'It's fine. I'm ok.' even when we don’t feel so, because - that's the way it is :)

After all this rambling, I am now wondering why I started writing all this? I go to bed after posting this, probably with hopes that things might change at dawn. But who am I kidding? I know the truth and I now say, 'It's fine. I'm ok' and I mean it (most of the time).